That 4 Letter Word...

When it comes to 'Relationship Lotto' I have hit the jackpot.

It's not perfect, but I don't want it to be. I am one of those people that think a relationship is all about those imperfections. And the little things.

But this relationship almost didn't happen. And whilst I sit here and am so glad that it did, it really brings home how much such a small and seemingly insignificant decision can really change your life.

You see, I met my now husband online. We met on RSVP.
I was only out of my previous relationship for about 6-months and I had very high standards as a result.

Previous to meeting Cameron, I joked to my girlfriends that I wanted to end up with a 'blonde haired, blue eyed rugby player' it was a joke at the time, but to be perfectly honest it was what I wanted. I had chased the idea of what was 'right' for so long, and they failed. I wanted to raise the bar and set my sights on someone that I thought was unattainable.

I wanted to follow my heart instead of my head, for once.

Cameron and I made contact a good couple of months before we met. I was cautious having a 2.5 year-old Logan to protect, but also because I was still trying to work out what I wanted. He 'seemed' nice, but didn't ooze a lot of personality in our chat sessions.

And those that know me, know I need someone with personality.

He invited me out on a couple of dates prior to me saying yes... and trust me, I regret it now! And when it came to finally agreeing to meet, I wasn't excited. To the point where I almost bailed, in favour of a night home alone.

This was my life changing decision. I went.

When I laid eyes on him for the first time, I went weak at the knees. For those that don't know, Cameron has blonde hair, blue eyes and plays rugby. I was on the phone to a girlfriend at the time I saw him (so I had a Plan B if he was nothing like his picture) and he walked in the complete opposite direction when he saw me.

My.Heart.Sank.

But me being me followed him.

He went to the ATM only a few metres away and I popped up behind him "Hi stranger!".

The rest of the date went well, we were both nervous and after the movie he escorted me to my car and gave me a goodbye kiss. It wasn't perfect, but hey who cares!!

And when he left I sat in my car and had a giggle to myself. I giggled at the fact I had been missing out 'on that' for a couple of months, the fact that he was EXACTLY what I had been looking for and although the personality was a bit quiet to what I would like, I was willing to give date 2 a go.

And then the 'He's not going to call doubts'... until he SMS'ed me about 15mins later. And we saw each other the following night.

And every night until we moved in together a couple of months later.

His personality isn't anything like what it was when we first met. I learnt early on that he is petrified of girls (you know Stan from South Park? Like that!), so when I followed him on our first date, it was because he FREAKED out and didn't know what to say/do. Because I took charge and took the pressure off of him, it was easy street. Our personalities are actually a very good combination.

And because of that one small decision on that day, I now have him as my husband. I now have Ryder and a complete little family, and we have this great life that I wouldn't have had if I stayed at home.

I don't know where I would be right now if I chose the alternative, but I don't care. I care that the life I have now is exactly where I want it to be, with the only one I want it to be with.

I took a chance. For once I went against my head and followed my heart.

And I love where it took me.